April 2016 from Keep Drinking by 7 Hour Darkness Invasion

I ate plums at midnight alone on the kitchen floor
I said "I love you" to the sink but it didn't reply
My parents were away somewhere in the states
It's nights like these I wish that I could cry

I substituted tears for juice rolling down my chin
And I tried to slide the pits of the plums underneath the cat when I was done
I thought about stabbing myself with a kitchen knife
But that would have involved me getting up

How great would that feel though
Bleeding out onto the floor
Pyjama bottoms soaked in blood
And the cat eating my corpse
But instead it was cold
And I couldn't get to sleep
And I'm still alive
Oh woe is me

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