Plan A from Keep Drinking by 7 Hour Darkness Invasion

I never meant for things to get this way
I saw it coming but I just kinda hoped that it wouldn't happen
I didn't have a back up plan
Though I tried yeah I tried to make one

But it was plan A all the way
Now I'm counting down the days
Until I can't live with myself anymore
Until I can work up the courage
To end my own life

But right now the thought of my parents
Finding my lifeless body floating in the tub
Is enough for me to instead go out and get drunk
And maybe try to live the life I want
But that involves lots of doctors
And involves lots of drugs
And involves losing a whole lot of people that I love
But I mean it's not like things could get much worse because

It was Plan A all the way
Tell me what can I say
Forgive me dad forgive me mom
Forgive me please forgive me everyone
All I want is to not fuck up for once

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