The Fret from Soma by Ahana

Childhood was a lesson in excess
How to be too much and stay that way
I used to be bigger
I used to be smaller
I don't know when I'm coming from
I used to be 60 different colours
I don't know when I'm calling from

A receipt in a flurry on the road next to me
And I put it in the bin and made a spell out of it
Let me change (,) spirit
And be the same in it

There's too much music in my muscles
I cannot carry it alone
If I could draw my veins on paper
Would it lead me to a home?

And you can taste the frets on my freezing fingers
You can smell the fret in my thinning hair
And there's a fret in me now about everything now
Nothing knows what will be where

And I am not a stranger to being a stranger
You have got a light and I don't know where
And it's coming towards me and I am in danger
Of missing me here before I'm there
With you

I do not end
I only start a lot
And when I start
Something starts to rot
I missed the warm
When I was born
I don't mind looking old
If it kept me warm

I saw a scorpion in the soil in the storm
And it wouldn't wash away
I saw it dancing in the void
Of course I couldn’t look away

The horizon's getting higher
And the wrongest things are underwater
How am I to have a daughter?
I just learned to be a daughter

I cannot stomach how much I love to sing
And it’s hard to sing on an empty stomach
And soon I'm gonna jump and I fear
I'm closing my eyes in the run up

And you can taste the frets on my freezing fingers
You can smell the fret in my thinning hair
And there's a fret in me about everything now
Nothing knows what will be where, and

I am not a stranger to being a stranger
You have got a light and I don't know where
You're coming towards me and I'm in danger
Of missing me here before I'm there, and

There are many bodies that I can go
To touch and let the current go through
And if my body is not free
This is a good place to be
With you

I prepare for loss like it’s a dinner party that I'm hosting
I've already failed a million ways before I’ve failed
But I intend to cross every line and every quarry
I have always crossed my wonder with my worry
With you

• Folk
• United Kingdom