Take That from 1988 by Astronaut Adam

I'm feeling like I'm healing from all the shit that I've been dealing with
Deep within I keep concealed all these feelings
Until they overspill then I gotta deal with them
You probably don't wanna hear this shit but it's just to keep it real
I've had it up to here
To the ceiling fan
Now the street life, it don't seem so appealing
I take the wheel of life and steer
My vision crystal clear
Pills took my homies life
How the fuck am I supposed to feel

I lost another friend today
I meditate
I locked myself up for the winter
I've been feeling bitter
I've been steady taking losses
But I'm feeling like a winner
Ready stay cautious, these villains out for dinner
I've lost too many people in the past
I've been grieving so long I hope this season don't last
I've been through the struggle
That's a fact
But I'm feeling like I'm healing
I'll take that

I sat back to relax and I realized that these eyes just need to cry every once in a while
I laugh at the fact that in the past, I was in denial
So I disguised it with a smile
But when these eyes are dry and I'm starting to feel hollow
I won't take my life away swallowing pills from a bottle
If you think I'd do that
You done lost your damn mind
My mom relapsed way too many damn times
God give me a damn sign if you're real
Like sunshine on a hill
Time to unwind and heal
The art of sublime is real
So I never stray too far away
I meditate and I pray
Nowadays I'm looking forward to the days
I'm better than before, but still torn between work and play
But in many ways I would say I'm doing OK
But still always wanting more for myself and my family
It hurt me to the core when my mama passed
I gotta grow accept it and let it go
From generational trauma passed down
I am the last
My flow is focused on healing the soul

I lost another friend today
I meditate
I locked myself up for the winter
I've been feeling bitter
I've been steady taking losses
But I'm feeling like a winner
Ready stay cautious, these villains out for dinner
I've lost too many people in the past
I've been grieving so long I hope this season don't last
I've been through the struggle
That's a fact
But I'm feeling like I'm healing
I'll take that

Damn
How could you do this to us
The use of drugs
Abuse and mistrust
The trauma deep rooted
The natural human feeling to love has been reduced by trust issues
Must this be what I have become accustomed to
I could use this as a lesson instead of having the perception, what's the use of this
Which direction do I choose to live
I guess I gotta figure these feelings out
So I'm gonna take the healing route

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