Walls from 15 Years by CØL
Walls is about the lifetime of being on guard and tiptoeing around your own trauma. Setting boundaries with the ones you love; "Don't touch my hips please"
Things of that nature. It doesn't ever quite go away; At least it hasn't for me. I still feel powerless and I still feel lost. I still wonder if my family believes me or they don't acknowledge it out of guilt or shame or even disgust.
As a kid, I never quite understood what even happened to me or why I didn't scream or why i kept it all inside for years, or why my family didn't notice, or why I still feel powerless despite his death. I don't know how to be me, because who I am was stripped from me by force.
