bittersweet confidence from it's bittersweet by CowardlyCrow

I know leaving will be difficult
And I can't seem to find the right words in my throat
To tell you that I'm not what I seem to be
But I guess, I'll just let it be

Bittersweet confidence
Would you love me even if we're friends?
I never saw the day you left me
I had a dream where you were dead
And I was putting flowers in your skin
Maybe, hell was the warmth I'm missing

Leaving the skeleton in the corner
Putting behind my past
Patching up what was damaged
Stitching up the cracks
The open wound became a scab
The open wound became a scab

Bittersweet confidence
Were we even fucking friends?
Cuz it sure as hell didn't look like it
Even though you're not forgiven
I would still stand with my arms wide open
Deep down, I knew you were good

Would you love me, even if my heart stopped beating?
I woke up, but why do I still feel dead
The things you said will never leave my head
There's a ghost inside my room
And it kind of looks like you
Do you
Know how much sleep I could get without it?
Worn out memories
They're just a useless piece of history
But they, sadly, won't leave my head

Bittersweet confidence
I wish I'll never see you again
I hope you don't think of me as much as I think of you
Do I have to stay awake?
Because it just feels like a waste
You could kill me and I wouldn't mind

I wouldn't mind

Bittersweet confidence
We were nothing but fickle friends
But I guess, I'll just let it be

• Experimental
• amateur
• healing
• singer-songwriter
• singersongwriter
• Illinois