Getting Bigger from Disastrous Transgenderism by Chloe Defector

if what we are today becomes normal tomorrow
we'll be something different the next day
we're here and we're queer
and we're fuckin angry

I wander through the darkness
I'm trying to find the light in the darkness
but there's no light
at the end of the tunnel

I'll be the light I'll shine bright
I'll be too good to be true
I'm not bright enough
you still can't see me

pulling roots of fear out from underneath my skin
but they keep growing back again
the things you run away from
will follow you forever

my work here is to remind you
that there's still a human heart beating inside you
do you really not know what you're doing
do I have to pull the trigger

you saw it with your own eyes and you said you don't believe it
now it's been a few years since then
and all I have left to say is I told you so

there's so much more I want to do
but ya can't always get what you want
maybe I'll get there some day
but right now the consensus is that I don't deserve it

it's like the world is spinning backwards
the worse that you are the more that you get
when the magnetic poles reverse
who will be on top

maybe I'm just desensitized
or maybe I'm tuned to a higher level of intensity
when shit gets real
do you think you could handle the heat

when your linear narrative comes to an end
will you start over again
or will you start living in the moment

be patient with yourself my friend
you won't understand right away but when you do
it'll blow your mind wide open

my work here is to remind you
the entire universe is right inside you
the heat and the pressure makes you what you are
and we're getting bigger

• Punk
• folk
• folk punk
• queercore
• trans
• transgender
• Santa Cruz