family - 𝘱𝘳𝘰𝘥. 𝘳𝘦𝘮𝘥𝘰𝘭𝘭𝘢 from wildflowers by Double Em
Tracklist
| 7. | family - 𝘱𝘳𝘰𝘥. 𝘳𝘦𝘮𝘥𝘰𝘭𝘭𝘢 | 3:17 |
Lyrics
Tea steep, the way the steam creep in coldest winters
Marinating in my deepest fears to lift the toxins
Laying dormant for a couple years, and barely shifting
Vowel formants in the softest speech, I’m speaking often
Stay close to me, stay please, I need good omens
Which version of me hosting, and which doing supporting?
Bound still to this false home
I operate with caution, so I’m underperforming
And when I’m going through the motions, feel like treading a snowstorm
To keep warm, secluded with my ‘erbs and the hearth on
I keep on, thought I was magnetic
The chatter in the dome be spewing counter rhetoric, so long it made me sensitive
I stay reflective, looking through a two way mirror at my connections
Guess you saw yourself in me, and told me I was special
The way that made me feel like love was truly something precious
Something never regretted
I often miss mundane things, your smell and how you tasted
And with memory waning, I just hope that I can save it
To savor all your basic elements, and then sustain them
I try to love again,
But find I’m just replacing faces
See when you look up close, this thing called life actually basic
I hold my closest people with me always, they amazing
I told myself I’d close the lid on staying hella faded,
And embrace the one where my relationships was treated sacred
Cos once upon a time, they were figments of my imagination
Headmates that got designated to idle stations
And at the time I just channeled it into mute frustration
But at the end of the day, left me alienated
It’s complicated, navigating polyamory as a plural system
Our partners barely see the half of me
How the fuck we meant to live this life, without collapsing reality?
Cos reality at best is often fragile entanglement
When you don’t know who you are, you end up latching to the panic of abandonment
Past flames struggled to manage it
And so I had to learn to handle it
Took the voices in my head, and start calling them family
Watchu do when your brain on loose
And you can’t get through the pain no more?
(I can’t even hold a candle to it; lens magnify my life and take a gander through it)
How you think it goes, when you just don’t know if the flowers grow
Cos you ain’t look anymore?
(so I had to learn to handle it, take the voices in my head and make ‘em family)
Watchu do when your brain on loose
And you can’t get through the pain no more?
(I can’t even hold a candle to it; lens magnify my life and take a gander through it)
How you think it goes, when you just don’t know if the flowers grow
Cos you ain’t look anymore?
(so I had to learn to handle it, take the voices in my head and make ‘em family)
