Bitch from Bitch [EP] by DROP THERAPY

I often feel like I have to keep my more raw emotions in check. With BPD, that's normal. That being said, being where I was meant that it often felt like I was restraining a monster. Someone who sees the possibility of being left behind and becomes paranoid and thinks in conspiracies. Acting poorly towards people I spent time with and hearing them talk to people in the other room made me suspicious that they were talking about me, even if they were not. I'd insert myself into other people's plans and get upset when they did something that didn't involve me. I'd often (and still somewhat do) feel as if people are closer to me than they really are, simply because they'd give me the time of day, sometimes to the point of resisting the urge to look for them around town, an urge which was easily avoided, thankfully, especially since I had made some progress in managing my BPD since 2020, when the disappearance of one specific person from my life set it off like the wildfires in the central valley I lived in.

When your parents aren't there, your roommates are trying to survive with you or are more focused on themselves, and the place you grew up in is hostile to you and your community, you freak out.

Tracklist

3.	Bitch	4:18

Lyrics

I'm not myself today
Get the fuck away, get the fuck away
I'm lost inside a haze
Locked away, forced to spectate
I'm not myself today
Get the fuck away, get the fuck away
I'm lost inside a haze
Locked away, forced to spectate

(Please)
Put me on a leash before I hurt someone, put me on a leash before I hurt someone else

(Hooks carved into flesh, hooks carved into flesh, hooks carved into flesh)
(Claws hooked into flesh, claws hooked into flesh, claws hooked into flesh)

How much of this is my own delusion, how much is okay?
I'll bury myself so it can't escape
It never ends, it never ends
How much of this is my own delusion, how much is okay?
I'll bury myself so it can't escape
It never ends, it never ends
How much of this is my own delusion, how much is okay?
I'll bury myself so it can't escape
It never ends, it never ends

If I hit the dog, it will leave me the fuck alone
Fuck you, it's all my fault
If I hit the dog, it will leave me the fuck alone
Fuck you, it's all my fault

So put me on a leash before I hurt someone, put me on a leash before I hurt someone else

The space you carved in must be for a purpose
I can hear you outside the door
Face me like a coward
The space you carved in must be for a purpose
I can hear you outside the door
Face me like a coward
I don't wanna be horror

They're just gone longer than usual
This means nothing else
Their plans haven't changed to cut me out
They're just gone longer than usual
This means nothing else
I've ruined a new friendship
Lens through which I'm watching harm upon the self
They're just gone longer than usual
This means nothing else
A new favorite person would fuck me up
But why the fuck else would I do this to myself?
Just gone longer than usual
This means nothing else
A new favorite person would fuck me up
But why the fuck else would I do this to myself?
I need to find my collar, I'm just a liability

My thoughts are a glass prison that turns home into confinement out of obligation
My thoughts are a glass prison that turns home into confinement out of obligation
I don't want to go out looking for you
I don't want to go out looking for you

Credits

from Bitch [EP], released March 14, 2025

License

CC BY-SA 3.0. See the Creative Commons website for details.