Recall from Dear Mouse by Fen

been doing my time, everything’s trying, living undermined
am I meant to swallow this, got to open my fist, can’t open my fist

somewhere in this heap of shit there's a good bit
that's what I tell myself and hope I don't quit
but this time it's harder and I'm starting to question
why I ever thought I knew my direction

I'm in a funk and stuck in bad headspace
people around me don't quite resonate
I made a choice and lately I curse it
half of my life, there's no way to reverse it

I am desperate to recall
what it felt like to be satisfied
I am waiting for the call
something else, something new
I am torn between what I am and all the things that I could've been
how many times do I have to face this down

I gotta focus on the shit that lifts me
outta the depth and its empty cravings
but nothing comes, no poignant conceptions
I need some money to fill the depression

I am desperate to recall
what it felt like to be satisfied
I am waiting for the call
something else, something new
cause I am torn between what I am and all the things that I could've been
like every time that I've had to face this
I'm breaking down into a kind of stasis
I’m breaking down into a little hole, I’m breaking down into a little hole
the shitty feeling will go / the shitty feeling will stay
the shitty feeling will go

don't stress, have a great time
lean back and ring up some friends
belly laugh on a sunny day
run with your beautiful child and play
lovely wife and a steady job, well
you got it all, yessiree bob
so look around and cherish your time
to anyone else your life’s divine

I am desperate to recall
what it felt like to be satisfied
I am waiting for the call
something else, something new
I am torn between what I am and all the things that I could've been
how many times do I have to face this down

I am desperate to recall
I am waiting for the call
I am torn between what I am and the things that I could've been
how many times do I have to face this
how many times, how many times
how many times do I have to face this
how many times, how many times

• Progressive Rock
• Rock
• metal
• progressive crossover
• Victoria