Muerta from Whispers by HAZEL

Every day
It seems to me
Your voice gets fatter
With authority

I see the signs
And I'm aware
You'll ruin my life
If I place it in your care

You will bring me down
You will if I stay around
This place and home
That we've grown
You leave me no choice but to leave you here alone
This time I found my backbone

You can
Blame me
You only activate me
My thoughts
Are my own
Your blame works like a grindstone
Honing my soul until
I can get rid of your control, 'till I
I have the spirit and the mind
Strong enough to leave you behind

But even when I leave
I just can't believe
Even when I rest
I have to hold my breath

Even when alone
I'm not on my own
Even when I'm free
You are there with me

You left marks that can't be seen
That I still carry every day
You can't control me anymore
But our past will never go away
Your gaslighting, your manipulation
Locks me in my mind
And only time will tell
If there's a key that I can find

To free myself, to heal my psyche
I have to make myself more like me
Maybe one day, if unlikely
Wake up without you beside me

And let go of the guilt and pain
And the all of the paralyzing blame
I put on myself with my shame
But I guess I'll never be the same

As even when I leave
I just can't believe
Even when I rest
I have to hold my breath

Even when alone
I'm not on my own
Even when I'm free
I have to believe that

You can
Blame me
You only activate me
My thoughts
Are my own
Your blame works like a grindstone
Honing my soul until
I can get rid of your control, 'till I
I have the spirit and the mind
Strong enough to leave you behind

• Metal
• metal
• metalcore
• popmetal
• Budapest