Absence by Mike Dickson

Was I ever here? Really? Did you see me? Or did you think you saw me? Did you stand beside my grave and weep for what I used to be? Show me how you know where I was. And when I was. And that I am not just a comfortable memory planted inside your head to make you think I was still there beside you?

Even when we were together, how did you know I was really there with you in body and not just because you wanted me to be there? Was I with you? Was I there? Was I ever there?

Now you look down on the ashes and see what you want to see of me. That grey dust is no more me than any past memory of me was ever what I was. We are all without form and without shape, concealing ourselves within the mind that wants to pin us down and not as reality dictates. I am no here. I am not there. I was never really anywhere. And at the same time I could be everywhere.

Presence and absence. Neither make sense. Neither have any true meaning because we can think what we want to think and and believe what we need to believe. Do not stand and grieve for me. I am not here. I never was.

Tracklist

1.	Absence 01	4:24

2.	Absence 02	5:14

3.	Absence 03	3:29

4.	Absence 04	5:36

5.	Absence 05	3:51

6.	Absence 06	2:27

7.	Absence 07	3:29

8.	Absence 08	10:42

9.	Absence 09	2:55

10.	Absence 10	9:08

Credits

released November 5, 2024

All music is (c) 2024, Black Cat Music Factory
All titles performed, orchestrated and arranged by Mike Dickson
All compositions by Mike Dickson unless otherwise stated.

Recorded in Edinburgh and East Lothian
Artwork (c) Black Cat Art House

Numerous samples stolen and mutated beyond belief from many different sources, without credit or any possibility of recognition, mostly because that amount of paperwork is not something that anyone really deserves.

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