rapid river by MJ Bones
vignettes of childhood haunt me still—I find myself often wondering what everything was for. I wish my mom could hear this song. I never got to tell her how I feel, let alone make any proper amends with each other. was it even possible, at the end of the day?
anyway, on a less personal note:
this song is about the fleetingness of childhood innocence, about grief and loss, about deflection of pain, about the coping mechanisms people develop to quiet the noise.
Tracklist
| 1. | rapid river | 3:00 |
Lyrics
rapid river
when I was 9 I watched
my sister almost die
on the living room floor
we’d been playing at a park
she had never been stung
by a bee before
I sent her down the road
as her face began to swell
said just hold on till you’re home
and I rode my bike like hell
to the bingo hall
to grab my mom
I’m lightning now
against the clock
see when you’re in the sticks
there ain’t no ambulance
it takes an hour that you don’t have
I wept over her body
in a chorus with
the screams of my stepdad
mom grabbed me by the shirt
and tried to shake out all my flaws
this is all your fault
this is all your fault
this is all your fault
this is all your fault
this is all your fault
playin back the tape
of the summer of 08
a little older now
got broader shoulders now
moms been gone for days
always tryin to escape
our fucked up little house
the prison that she made
fuckin brick by brick
she doesn’t leave her room
except for magic tricks
except for old habits
the ones that never die
unlike her sister in the ground
or her dad up in the sky
that’s why she’s always getting high
and she’ll chase me up the stairs
like she is running for her life
don’t you ever cry
don’t you ever cry
don’t you ever cry
don’t you ever cry
don’t you ever
and i’ll chase the ghost of you
like I am running for my life
I’ll never make it right
I’ll never make it right
I’ll never make it right
I’ll never make it right
I’ll never make it right
I’ll never make it right
never make it right
never make it right
I’ll never make it
Credits
impromptu bed recording magic, uke, vocals, lyrics: MJ Bones
