Illusion from bwywtb by Mouses

Teach me how to feel like I deserve what I get
I’m feigning insignificance in place of regret
Oh I won’t be there if you won’t be there
To tie a yellow ribbon so we both coexist
Pre-paternal gutters of the past reminiscent

Of tidings ever rewinding,
But at least I’m alive
Oh and exponentially
Thoughts of you eventually die
Maybe that’s okay

Oh well, isn’t it strange
We’re heading for the same train into the future
Time it quickens with age
This is no existence
I’m an illusion
Don’t you know there’s more to life than this?

Colour me insensitive but guilt fades away
The days they open up so vivid
And descend into grey
I’m spiralising
Bastardising god
And I’ll seek rhythm in the beat of my heart
A conscious resignation to exist, torn apart

I always look on the bright side
At least I’m alive
Oh and exponentially
Thoughts of you eventually die
Maybe that’s okay