Swallowing Bruises from Healing Hurts by Myles Bullen

There's no excuse for excuses

Healing hurts like you're swallowing bruises

It’s true/ you didn’t choose this

Healing hurts when we love who we’re losing


Now you, are only illusion
(you’re not real)
Healing hurts, makes me feel stupid
(So dumb)
I was eating a sandwich when
I got the phone call…...

Now I can’t get what was said
Out of my head, my head is heavy
lead, Writing a letter to the dead,
That’s all

A Simple thought of you can bring me to tears
Death is the disaster/ a storm that never clears

A Nostalgic collage in my brain
A mirage, then you’re gone, insane
Moments turn to stone
Photographs locked in frames
Can’t imagine your face
ever getting older

I wondered how long you’d live if you got sober?

I wonder how those drugs got a hold of you?
I wonder if you ever felt love like I do

feeling like I’ll never feel better

Reading, breathing, grieving
Finding meaning on an island screaming
Asylum seeking kindness
finding violence
Tired dreaming of
impossible meetings cuz
To process a loss
And collect the pieces putting me
Back together will take forever
Who has time for that? Really

I see suicide is so high
Addiction at my doorstep
Knocking i ignore it
Mindfully exploring,
a slow moving tortoise
That’s sore and distorted
Aurora dwindling down
Tangled in chords
Making sounds it’s not proud of

Abandoned building
With a ceiling feeling crowded

I can’t tell if I practice suffering?
Is this an act of loving / or is it cactus hugging?
I feel stuck in it
Impatient while my heart is
Slowly buffering
I hurry hurry it along
I’ve felt enough of it

Why do thoughts Hurt so bad?
Why does love work like that?

It’s true/ you didn’t choose this
Healing hurts like you're swallowing bruises
Healing hurts when we love who we’re losing

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