notebook by jason calhoun
(text messages, both sent and not)
this is garbage
-you are a genius
i really appreciate your love and support my friend
-you always end our phone calls with “I love you”
-i always feel guilty for never saying it first
am i getting through to you? am i making sense?
this is garbage
-you are a genius
i have complete faith in you
-unshakeable faith?
do anything you want
-this is garbage
you are a genius
i was definitely trying to be overly sentimental
maybe that’s why i’m feeling so sensitive about it
always appreciate your thoughtful listening <3 <3 <3
this is garbage
-you are a genius
also these may be the final masters but my ears are too clogged to listen lol
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Jason Calhoun’s ‘notebook’ finds the artist confronting doubt in his own abilities while affirming his unyielding faith in loved ones. Incepted during his first sojourn to a trappist monastery, and recorded in a process that was stretched over a year and a half, the record feels uncharacteristically stark for a Jason Calhoun record. Singular voices seem to protrude out of nowhere, supported by vapor-thin and wistful chords. This is Calhoun at his most romantic and most devastating. His music is a page torn from a diary, thrown out a car window, and picked up off the sidewalk by a stranger who cherishes its brutal honesty and unknowability forever.
-Michael Cormier
Tracklist
| 1. | having left | 5:28 |
| 2. | things are just fine | 2:39 |
| 3. | take my money, please | 3:31 |
| 4. | what a relief that was | 2:42 |
| 5. | we held each other once | 2:02 |
| 6. | feelings for a while | 6:27 |
| 7. | hoping this will help | 2:09 |
| 8. | you have a big heart | 2:20 |
| 9. | never enough | 2:46 |
| 10. | eventually i'll get old | 6:37 |
Credits
sounds by jason calhoun, written and recorded between 2019 and 2021 in ithaca, new york
mastered by a.f. jones
art and design by francis lyons
