Club 69 by Ness Daniels
Nite
The name of this album first came to me when I was 21, driving home from a bar. The decisions made that night, and almost every night thereafter, haunted me and led me on a journey that has shaped who I am today. At 21, I was drinking, partying, hooking up with random boys in El Paso, and saying goodbye to my dignity. These decisions brought painful lessons, and the night always ended with a daunting drive home. During these drives, there was only one type of music playing in my car: synthwave.
I also became immersed in the worlds of darkwave and post-punk, finding a home in the local goth community. I had found my people—those who, like me, discovered hope and community in the dark.
In these songs, I use driving drums, catchy synth melodies, post-punk-influenced guitar, and vocals inspired by a range of artists from Lana Del Rey to post-hardcore bands like Movements and even Taylor Dayne.
Throughout the album, listeners will experience my emotions conveyed through the synths and vocal style, capturing everything I felt when I wrote these songs. These tracks aren't typical synthwave; they are honest and raw. I’m unafraid to express my true feelings. My hope is that listeners will find comfort in knowing they are not alone in facing life's hardships and that, no matter what, there is always hope.
Tracklist
| 1. | Club 69 | 4:44 |
Lyrics
No
Trust
Faded
Lust
Feed my soul with your body
Feed my heart with your broken mind
Feed my love that's not there (not there)
Feed me till I can’t feel anymore
I want to leave, I want to be
Faded on the dance floor
I can’t feel a thing
Lost in your eyes
And the false hope that you bring
Something about the way you looked into my eyes
I can’t remember when I truly felt alive
Take me by the hand
Tell me that I'm yours
Make me feel alright tonight
I'm
Faded on the dance floor
I can’t feel a thing
Lost in your eyes
And the false hope that you bring
Touch me
Love me
Fuck me
On the dance floor tonight
No
Trust
Faded
Lust
3021
I don't want to let you go
(I don't want you to leave now)
I know that you still love him
(I wasn't good enough)
What am I gonna do
When you’re gone forever
What am I gonna do
When you don't want my body anymore
I'll drink and drive
To kill the pain inside
(I don't want this, oh)
Losing my mind
Am I running out of time?
(Come and save me now)
Liquor and lust make me feel enough
(But it doesn’t now, help now)
Your touch—the closest thing I’ll get to love
(Something’s better than nothing)
What are you gonna do
When he doesn’t want you after all?
What are you gonna do
When you realize what you’ll lose?
I'll drink and drive
To kill the pain inside
(I don't want this, oh)
Losing my mind
Am I running out of time?
(Come and save me now)
Voices in my head are saying, Move on
(Move on, move on)
Voices in my head are saying, Move on
(Move on, move on)
I'll drink and drive
To kill the pain inside
(I don't want this, oh)
Losing my mind
Am I running out of time?
(Come and save me now)
Take me away, I wanna ride away
This is where love comes to die
Hold me, kiss me, take me away (away, away)
Is it alright, alright now?
I’ll drive, into the night
I’ve come to realize that the things we desire aren’t always guaranteed in this life.
And I know I need
To be okay with that.
It seems like I’m trapped in a cycle.
It’s an endless summer that I can’t seem to escape.
I am blinded by my shame.
His loveless embrace was the only thing that made me feel okay.
And now here I am again, alone.
Under the streetlights and that fucking star that guided my way home.
I’m lost.
I’m drowning in self-pity and false hope.
But I don’t want this to be the end of me,
I’m not ready.
I’m not ready anymore.
Show me what I need to do.
Show me who I need to be.
Credits
Produced and Written by Annessa Hernandez
Guitar by Nathan Sansom
Mixed and Mastered by Andrew Reyes
Released by RetroReverbRecords
Copyright RetroReverbRecords 2024
