Golden Boy from Koi by Pacific Purgatory

im sorry that im not the best you think i could be
i know you expected so much more from me
im sorry that i couldnt do anything to make you proud
now its too late because you're no longer around

i dont want to feel like i disappointed you
so please tell me is there anything that i can do
and i dont know exactly when i'll grow up
but i'll do my best and i hope that's enough

i wanna run away i wanna get out
i gotta leave today i wanna leave now
the pressure under the weather
what will it take for me to feel better
i do everything that should make me feel right
why do i wake up every day and still hate my fucking life
i cant believe it that i even made it this far
i look at the night sky but i cant see any stars

i wake up by myself in a bed built for two
i slept in too long check the time and its already noon
will i do anything worthwhile today
never let them tell you that we all are the same

i know its not right to be awake this late
but i prefer the night i dont really like the day
and i wish it was the other way around
im an empty shell im lost but not yet found

i hate that i know theres more to life than this
because im so afraid to leave from my abyss
im under pressure under the weather
what will it take for me to feel better
theres things that i wanna do that i will never see
goals that i have set but wont ever achieve
my heads in the air and my feet are on the ground
my brain is fucked up and my eyes are spinning round

im not sure if i'll be fine
i am afraid to die
when does it get better i dont know
i dont really talk at all
i wont answer when you call
i think im just gonna go back home

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• Honolulu