Postpartum from Motherhood by Paige Hargrove

I’ve heard the stories
I’ve heard the songs
What must it feel like
When your body is not yours anymore
When your heart can live outside your chest
And run away at any given moment

I didn’t get it
I hope they know
How frustrating it must have been to get no call
Every day making sure they were fine
Overwhelmed and terrified

But it’s sweet and it’s light
And it’s tears that burn like hell
And it’s sad and it’s fine
And it’s the best I’ve ever felt
And I can see it in her eyes
She knows I don’t know what I’m doing
But she loves me just fine
So why shouldn’t I

I’m so in love with
Every sound
You simply move and I am nearly breaking down
Swollen eyes at every smile that you make
And only silence can say what I can’t say

Knew I was running
Running out of time
Ever since they laid your body
Right on mine
How you stared when we met face to face
In my chest I felt an unnerving weight

Time’s a thief and a gift
And it doesn’t give a damn
Bout what you need or what you want
So soak every second in
And I can see it in her eyes
All the days I’m gunna live
And she loves me just fine
So why shouldn’t I

It ain’t natural
To lose your whole self
To feel everything
And keep it all together

Oh every string that
Once tied up who I am
Is untethered now and wrapped around your finger
Don’t quite know who I am but Im your mother
it’s the best role that I’ll play upon this whole earth

it’s sweet and it’s light
And it may hurt like hell
It’s a deep kind of mess
But it’s the best I’ve ever felt
And I can tell you right now
That I don’t know what I’m doing
But she loves me just fine
So why shouldn’t I
Just as well oh why
shouldn’t
I love myself
Oh why
Shouldn’t I

• Folk
• folk
• motherhood
• mothers day
• singer-songwriter
• Chicago