confession from between heat by proxygirl
Tracklist
| 6. | confession | 14:00 |
Lyrics
hey you
i know it's getting kinda late
but please won't you stay
i know it's getting kinda late
but i need you to stay
love on the run im not as hungry as i was
i fell in love with my heartbreak
im gettin out of the city
i felt smart with my heart broke
i know i've never been pretty
but i can't pack my bags without lookin back
so clean my glass and face the facts
wish hadnt wrote like a thousand tracks
complaining bout you, bout startin new
but here's my new truth
dont wanna redo, don't wanna ghost you
just wanna sit aside and wait till post-youth
cause right now my mind's dillusional
i repeat the same lies till they're canonical
im addicted to the past, it's not denial
we can be friends, it's been a while
i shouldve been able to move on by now
but i guess im just a fucking child
with my thoughts runnin a thousand miles an hour thru my head
and out the other end till im dead
i never truly knew the words i sung
cause i bastardized our love
and i apologize hereof
man im sorry for the first time
when i changed your mind
and im sorry for the second time
when i let you change mine
i can't even text you frequently enough now
to call you my friend
i guess we're at forever's end
i guess we're at forever's end
i fell in love with my heartbreak
im gettin out of the city
i felt smart with my heart broke
i know i've never been pretty
i was in love for the first time
i was blinded by my mind
we coulda drug it out longer
but you were right to draw the line
i wish i hadnt wrote the first album
all i did was whine
i wish i hadnt done the second one
it was made to make you cry
i wish i hadnt started this one
cause i just want it to end
yet im sitting here again, ow
breakin open old wounds
i took a test on bdsm
it said i'm a masochist at the end
oh who am i
without you
i gotta redfine myself
as someone to believe in
someone with a future
more important than the past
i got pretty healthy life now
don't you know it's gunna last
ive gone a whole two months
without even---
???
i hope that most of you are gone
most of me is gunna be gone
by the end of this song
i gotta break my ego down
so that i can finally get around
to confessing the stress that's been depressing me
i'm sorry i can't text you
it probably doesn't matter much at this point
i'm sorry i can't interact with you
in any way, but it probably doesn't matter anyway
i'm afraid that doing anything with you
will make me relapse and i will use that
to feel bad about myself
i'm immature from the bottom of my heart
i'm working on breaking myself down
and rebuilding someone i can be proud of
from the ground up to my brow
???
i hope that i can change
i don't want you to fall away from my life
we've got so much in common
i hope i can change
i don't want anything to stay the same
because right now it's stressing me out every single gawd damn day
my friendships are falling apart
i hope i can change my heart
there's so much wrong inside my head that most of the time i just wanna be dead
