Fatal from Lupine Daughter by Scout Paré-Phillips
Tracklist
| 3. | Fatal | 6:31 |
Lyrics
I can create safety in fantasy
But will it hold
I don’t know
It feels like my life has grown walls around me
Are they closing in
Or opening
I remember living in Baltimore
Where the children thought I was a vampire
It seems they might have been right
I cannot go into the sunlight
It’ll burn me from the inside
I will vaporize
I remember when it all started to make sense
It was right after my grandfather died and my throat was closed
With stones and sorrow
You’ve got to see it for what it is
It could be fatal, or nothing at all
Always hanging in the balance is
All I’ve got, just lock me in a vault
Please protect me from
This whole world, I’ll come out when I’ve evolved
To live in the darkness
Of this hellscape, I can’t see anybody
I’m always alone, who’s going to save me from myself
The dominoes of my life fell one by one
All the men I’ve ever loved started to die
Despite doing all I could to keep them alive
Then my body abandoned me
My doctors didn’t know what was happening
My immune system was killing everything
It turned out the last gift my father gave me
Was his disease
I’ll hold onto this part of him, insidious as always
Then started all the medications
I never identified as compromised
I was always strong and full of fire
I guess I’ll just have to adapt to this carcass I now inhabit
My voice can be my armor to help me navigate
This trauma and affliction
You’ve got to see it for what it is
It could be fatal, or nothing at all
Always hanging in the balance is
All I’ve got, just lock me in a vault
Please protect me from
This whole world, I’ll come out when I’ve evolved
To live in the darkness
Of this hellscape, I can’t see anybody
I’m always alone, who’s going to save me from myself
I know all these questions are existential
I don’t expect anyone to be able to relate
But then again there might be someone out there
Who needs to hear this, just like I did
A lifetime ago
An identity shed like a skin
In a den, forgotten carrion
You are still valued my friend
You are more than your flesh
Than your flesh
Than your flesh
Than your flesh
Than your flesh
