NO MORE from Anmwé by Soley Mahogany

NO MORE
Soley Mahogany (A/C : Nella Céleste Némorin)

I’ve been trying to forget and keep on giving the best of me
Making it sweet for you and taking the bitter
Forgiving things, no one should ever live and go on and faking, with a happy face
I wasn’t asking so much then, looking for respect
Handle everything, managing your business
How many dreams did i have to swipe away why should i put my own life aside

I’ve been crying so much
Thinking ‘bout the past
You were gentle and charming
Treating me like a queen
That whole thing was a prank and i get screwed in your trap
Gotta go and take the reins of my life

I’ve been crying so much
Thinking ‘bout the past
Gentle and charming
Treated me like a queen
This whole thing was a lie and i fell for your eyes
Gotta go and try to build up my life

I was broken and losing my mind, not knowing where to go,
I didn’t even have a dime, no chance to find a home
I felt so burned, was son naïve i got dumbed,
Knew the light existed somewhere but no idea where the button was
Asking the universe to send me a solution
Praying for god he gives me some absolution
I felt so lost in disgrace, while you were so excited to see me coming back

And i was trying to find calm in me while you were breaking things
Seeking strength so that the kids don’t hear you getting mean
I hoped somebody told me
Should have listened to daddy
I was so young and lost too many years not loving me
I had to work on me til i could be free
Putting the blame on me
Going to therapy
I felt so trapped and seing no happy end to that story
So many times i’ve dreamed about your death, lord forgive me
And i’ve been thinking about pull the trigger but not on me
I could have done just anything, you can trust me
I was tired of crying, and crying and crying,
And hiding my tears with a smile

I’ve been crying so much
Thinking ‘bout the past
You were gentle and charming
Treating me like a queen
That whole thing was a prank and i get screwed in your trap
Gotta go and take the reins of my life

I’ve been crying so much
Thinking ‘bout the past
Gentle and charming
Treated me like a queen
This whole thing was a lie and i fell for your eyes
Gotta go and try to build up my life

I was just beggin some love from him
Ignoring the queen in me
Sometimes life’s shakes us so hard we gotta wake up from the night we’re in
Forcing me to come back to me and see the light within
Finding strength to open my eyes leave and breathe then start again
In my prison i was my own jailer, i realized i had the right and the power
So many women are abused by men in words and shame beating and sex
When people all around chose to ignore what’s happening there’s nothing left but to pray that they will receive that saving grace
You can’t change nobody baby
Write the pages of your story
Beggers can’t be choosers so stop begging, love yourself first
Nobody’s worth your sad
Nobody’s worth your pride
There’s nothing wrong with you so come on girl and put your fucking crown back

• Caribbean
• Hybrid
• World
• groove
• no more
• responsibility
• violence against women
• we are queens
• France