Veil from Viewing by Stay Inside

It's by design then.
I'm ignoring the worst of the signs.
I'm always desperate to apologize,
but I abandon it all.

I keep it fed...
With some last words, it was a theatrical exit.
Clearly staying too close, too attached,
is further than its necessary purpose.

///// This is dead weight
///// With some last words
///// With my head straight

Before I bend...
Yes, headfirst now from a safe distance.
Bystander... double standard,
but of course i'm staying out of this one.

///// View from safety
///// And I'll always
///// Fall back safely

So next time I get the chance,
I’ll make sure to let you know
the moment I’ve accomplished something.

What an opening line.
I recoil when I play it back in my mind.
Catch me mothering pride
and enjoying every second
of attention that I've gathered up.

My conscience has told me
that I shouldn't sleep without four alarms,
so when I'm gripped at 30,
my body will have done more than fertilize.

Either way,
as I'm losing consciousness,
and I stare off from the top of the hill
of my parents house,
guilt will be the last thing that sends me down
that soft slope.

///// I guess I’m dead weight

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