Maroon from Two Years by Straw Veins

I've built my life around people who only loved to tear me down / But the thought of the loneliness consuming me always kept them around / Because being alone was way worse than being scarred again / And a close enemy is always better than a distant friend

This reminds me of a time when I was in my bathtub / And I was drowning in more than water and the desire for love / My lungs were filling up with the pity and everything bad / IT WAS THE MOST BEAUTIFUL FEELING THAT I'VE EVER HAD

I had a good friend in the summer of two thousand and ten / She's a constant reminder of a name I'm always scared to mention / Because the flashbacks and the memories flood the chambers of my heart / They pump the blood to my hands as I look for a grip to restart

This reminds me of a time when I fell of of my bike / Just to get the attention of a girl that I only sort of like / And as my scraped knees bled the color maroon / I knew this was a feeling that I would love very soon

Goddamn it, I can't even function correctly anymore / It's getting to the point where living life seems like a chore / And Christmas morning is a wasted gift / When someone asks you about those marks on your wrist

"You're so beautiful. Why do you do this to yourself?" / Just leave me alone; I don't need your help / "You're so wonderful as is. So please stop." / This is getting out of control; Please call the cops

I didn't want it to be this way

• Acoustic
• Illinois