Honesty from Honesty by The Lifers

Backstage after the festival
you broke the whole thing off
in a fit of ecstatic truth
and I fear I caused the worst in you again
and I said you’d all be
better off if I left

It was a wanting-hoping for
the easy slide into harmony
trusting what you thought you wanted
and now we are in pain

You’re saying you didn’t mean it
I’m still waiting to believe it
Every time we try to do this
it just blows up in our faces

Why don’t you see that I become
the worst version of myself
whenever I try doing something
that makes me leave the house
It happened when I was eleven
and it’s still happening
when I’m twenty-seven
and I’m sorry

and I’m trying
to understand you -

only half-healed and half open
to try all this again
I want to be your friend

It’s all inside my head
Keeps taking over it
It’s not about your love
I push but then it shoves

Just know I understand
if you can’t keep waiting,
I’m still healing over here

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