Recover from TheyLoveThem by TheyLoveThem

I take a shower when I get home.
I scrub my body from head to toe.
I clean every part of myself I can clean.
But that doesn't seem to do enough-
There are just some spots that soap can't touch.
I still smell the stink of you on me.

The mirror is fogged when I step out of the shower.
I use a free hand to wipe with a towel until
I can see myself staring back, lovingly.

I smile and say "You are beautiful and you are loved.
You can do anything that you set your mind to."
Telling myself this every day helps me recover,
And I know depression will not find me here.

There are days when I am better.
Days when I am worse.
Days I wish there were someone by my side.
The dark fantasies of ending my life at this point have all but subsided.

I perform my shows. I put on my face.
I tell my stories. I try to be brave.
Talking about mental illness allows me to feel free.

I look at you, "You are beautiful, and you are loved.
You can do anything that you set your mind to."
Telling yourself this every day will help you recover,
And I know depression will not find you here.

Telling ourselves this every day will help us recover,
And I know depression will not find us here.

• Folk
• acoustic
• antifolk
• band
• experimental
• Philadelphia