lullaby by XH

-lyrics-

disassociate
like a lonesome castaway
and if there is one thing i hate
it's the choice to leave or stay

i don't want to be seen as
the burden, the extra, the waste of space
i can't find spot to sleep, this place isn't meant for me
and the walls around me don't talk back
So it's pointless for me to be standing by your side

would there be
sweets and treats and butterflies
to lift me up when you say goodbye?
oh it would be nice if i
sing my own lullaby

cuz i'm falling, singing through the cracks
now i'm blinded and i can't go back
tonight
i'm better off singing my lullaby

my lullaby
i can't make it right
my lullaby
i'm better off singing my lullaby

disassociate
before it escalates
what can i do to chase away
the thoughts that bring dismay

i don't want to be forgotten, left rotting away
can't ignore the fact that i am not needed
but the door to break free hides itself from me
so i'm stuck here, now i'm just a guy standing by myself
all alone

i feel so lost

is the sentence "everyone is welcome" nothing but a lie?
in this game, am i a king of or queen, or just a passer-by?
is this all a mistake?
can you tell me
please tell me
what it feels like to be free?

would there be
sweets and treats and butterflies
to lift me up when you say goodbye?
oh it would be nice if i
sing my own lullaby

cuz i'm falling, singing through the cracks
now i'm blinded and i can't go back
tonight
i'm better off singing my lullaby

my lullaby
i can't make it right
my lullaby
i'm better off singing my lullaby

my lullaby
i can't make it right
my lullaby
i'm better off singing my lullaby

• EDM
• Electronic
• Jungle DnB
• hardcore
• shoegaze
• singer-songwriter
• Singapore